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FEM is an All-Levels Membership Community for Women to Explore Their Feminine Nature and Relationship to Men & the Masculine

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For a Feminine Woman… 
...there is no greater taboo on this planet… 
…than the truth of your own nature.
You are the living embodiment of paradox.
And being in approval of this truth… 
…is an invitation…
…to the
ride of your life.
Woman, you are here to be fully expressed in your Feminine. 
Anchored in your
beauty, your truth, and your creational power.

Say no more, you had me at Taboo!

FEM is an All-Levels Membership Community for Women

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The Beauty, Truth, & Creational Power
of Feminine Nature

FEM (Feminine Eros Membership) is an all-levels, online community where courageous, open-hearted Women can gather to explore the Power + Joy of their Feminine nature and their co-creational relationship with Men + the Masculine.

In FEM, you will be in the company of Women who will support and encourage you toward experiencing the fullness of your Feminine Essence.

Although there are aspects within this journey that may feel edgy and confronting…

Held within the center point are harmonics of deep joy, playfulness, beauty, and a return to the true nature of our Eternal Feminine Innocence.


You will begin to peek into the blossoming gardens of feeling besotted in RESPECT & LOVE for Men + the Masculine.

Your understanding of the RIGHTNESS and POTENCY of the co-creative principle of the Masculine…

in relationship to your own paradoxical nature… 


Will. Be. Transformed.


Your Heart + Feminine Soul will be gently, fervently, devotionally opened to Love like you have never known before.

Walking this Feminine Awakening path TOGETHER in FEM’s highly-potent, alchemical chamber will change you simply by BEING in the field. 

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Ready to join FEM?


Per Month


Per Year - 2 Months Free!


A Typical Month in

Inside FEM, anything you may “learn” (~remember~)… 

You already know.

Your Soul already has ALL the answers your mind is looking for, and this is why everything you will experience, remember, and practice inside FEM is designed to help you anchor your own gnosis.

In addition to ample opportunities to practice your
Feminine Creational Mastery, you will also receive:

💗 1 live
FEM TEACHING TRANSMISSION with Gillian each month

💗 1 live
QUESTION & COACHING CALL with Gillian, attuned to the FEM TEACHING TRANSMISSIONS most alive in the field each month

💗 1 live
TRIGGER ALCHEMY WORKSHOP with Maria Lillrose each month

💗 Intimate + spontaneous 
G-SHARE Livestreams and/or writings from Gillian’s life, lens, learnings… 

💗 Hot-off-the-G-press "FEM-GEMS", SMS magic delivered straight to your phone!

SURPRISE BONUS Content, embodiment experiences and guest teachers. 

💗 Access to the highly activating G-VAULT TEACHING TRANSMISSIONS ~ an ever-growing video library of Feminine Consciousness transmissions, including:

   :: Secrets of the Cosmic Sugar Babies (Parts 1 & 2)
   :: The Ladder of Masculine Abstraction
   :: Over-functioning: The Death of Allure
   :: Corset: The Art + Paradox of Feminine Graciousness
   :: The Art, Eros, & Spiritual Responsibility of Feminine Communication
   … and more!

💗 Exclusive opportunities to be featured in
HYMN ~ our upcoming Feminine Eros blog collective showcasing
YOUR Eros-drenched writings of devotion to the Masculine 

💗 And regular, ongoing
FEM-FIELD ENTRAINMENT to brilliant, succulent Feminine-Essenced Beings who grace us ALL with their magic.
This alone is life-changing.

A Sample of Themes
You’ll Explore in FEM…

FEM is an online community gathered to inspire, activate, and facilitate each Woman’s unique, emergent Feminine Awakening process.

Different from the structured and sequential curriculum in All For Love, our 12-week flagship course,
FEM will follow an organic… unfurling… Feminine-led path into the themes and concepts most alive in the field each month.

Here is a sultry sip, and a teeny lifting of the veils, of the types of topics you’ll explore in FEM: 

Feminine Nature & Creational Power: 
💗 The Mystical Service of Feminine Desire
💗 The Lost Venusian Codex of Graciousness  
💗 The Creational Power of Feminine Enchantment & Allure
💗 Artful Feminine Communication
💗 Flirting vs. Playing with your Eros

Spiritual Repair & Co-Creation with Men & the Masculine
🌹 The Father Principle, Within and Without
🌹 The Root Shadow of Feminine Disrespect
🌹 The Metaphysics of Penetration
🌹 Keys to Loving Imperfect Men & the Masculine 
🌹 Magnetic Polarity and the Co-Creational Principle

Like most topics we teach at Feminine Eros, this constellation of themes contains layers and levels, which we continually deepen into throughout the Feminine Awakening journey. 

FEM is a different online space…

What members are saying

I am just so grateful to be here in a space that encourages the purification of my being with such beauty. The ripple effect into all areas of my life is not being missed.

– B

I wanted to share, again, how grateful I am for the impact being in this space has made in my life, especially in relationship with my Lover. It has also impacted my relationship with my children (I have 12 and 15 year-old boys).

– K

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Like so many Women in our yanged-out, high-velocity world, I know how it feels to deny the truth of my Feminine nature…

…to slowly
deaden my Eros… 

numb myself to Life.

Before I found my way onto this moonlit path of Feminine Awakening… 

…every day I’d step into the skyscraper offices of my fancy job as an Executive Producer, whispering to my inner little girl… 

“Just one more day, just one more day…
I promise.” 

And every day…

I abandoned my Feminine Body + Soul in the name of “having to survive.”

Over time, my Radiance and Eros began to calcify.

I became hardened, jaded, and over-functioning in my “independence.”

Not only was I living WAY outside of my true Feminine nature — I was SO not in approval of my desire to be led, taught, and guided by a brilliant Man.

(I later discovered this was for good reason… it annihilates the ego.)

Predictably… relentlessly…

…this rejection + numbing of my desire, the chronic “pushing out” of the very thing I most longed for… led to a dulled half-heartedness that began to poison me.

Coming to this awareness was a slow burn of deep remembrance; hundreds of illuminating micro-moments and years of self-denial + self-harm compounded, one layer after another.

Like the time I was in a blind rage in the middle of a Manhattan intersection, literally
screaming + fighting with my boyfriend, refusing his firm guidance to get out of the street… 

…because he wasn’t giving it to me “how I wanted it.” 

I refused his “imperfect” provision (which is to say… his penetration), even though that’s exactly what I desired underneath my painbody’s rage. 

With cars honking, taxi drivers yelling out their windows, and harsh lights flashing all around me, my eyes were opened to the sharp truth.

While I thought I was fighting with
Him… I was at war with myself.

There was this desperate part of me who wanted to let him take my elbow and walk me across the street, instead of recoiling at his guidance …

…and this other part who wanted to destroy Him. (Well… attempt to, anyway.)

Witnessing this chaos, deep inside I knew — something had to change.

I later realized I wasn’t looking for salvation from this Man…

I was aching for
approval of my own desire to be loved, guided, protected, and provided for...

Eventually… slowly… I opened myself to the truth these moments revealed.

I had a choice to make.

I could either keep living in this world of hurt: a gilded cage of my own making, colluding indefinitely with the Feminine painbody…


I could live inside a different story.

I could remember… 

I could soften… 

I could open…

I could recode my Body… 

and learn to receive… 

…from Men and from the Masculine (including God and Life itself!!)...

ALL the ways I longed for. 

I could surrender my egoic preferences and allow myself to be ~imperfectly~ held, cherished, and led. 

I could choose Love…

I could choose

And so…

I resigned from my job.
I flew myself across the globe (several times) and sat at the feet of Gurus in India and sought out the most brilliant, Crazy-Wisdom infused therapists, Shamans, and teachers that money could buy. 

I went to graduate school to study Jungian archetypal psychology and the potently Feminine realm of fairy tale and dream. 

I began, ever so gently, steeping in the brilliance of Men.

My dentist, accountant, therapist, gynecologist, and yoga instructor… all became Men whose care and provision helped to recode my entire system and taught me how to receive.

I also allowed myself to surrender inside a loving, erotic frame held by masterfully dominant Men.

And the more deeply I submitted to my true Feminine nature (ushered by these magnificent Men)...

…the more I unfurled and blossomed into the
fullness of my WOMAN

Along the way, I apologized, cried, threw up, prayed, orgasmed, miscarried, begged, ached, and dreamt.

And slowly, slowly, like any journey of Feminine Awakening…

I returned home to
ME… to the desires of my Feminine Heart… and to my own Love.

I remembered what it is…

…and how it feels…

…to rest in the TRUTH of my nature… 

and to fall in love… 

with being a Woman.


One of the reasons I adore this container Gillian has gifted us is because it's one of the few places where I can post in celebration of Masculine provision (and other Women will understand why I am wanting to share)

– V

Many of my friends outside this space don’t share my views on the masculine/feminine relationship, so this container is especially magical for me. Thank you all for being here.

– A.

The energy here lands the needle on the dial of 'fluffy vs truthful' smack bang in the middle; encompassing both. I love that you hold the ladies here to a standard in their interactions. I also feel more courage to drop more fully into my Feminine publicly, in part due to being inspired by the grace in which the ladies here carry themselves.

– L.

Thanks to this space, I feel in touch with the Divine in a way that is now undeniable. I feel like I am stretching, opening. Thank you, Gillian, for creating a group of such a high mystical, magical, and dismantling frequency unlike anything I have ever experienced. *Deep Bow* to you and all the co-creative Women in the space.

– L.

I love being in this community. It is a privilege to be connected with all of the wise Women here, who share such deep wisdom and insight with great tenderness, care and curiosity. Being in this honey pot with Gillian ~ our Queen Bee 🐝 ~ is activating so many layers of my mission here on Earth in this lifetime.

– M.

Gilllian’s work/medicine is like water for my deeply-parched, natural Feminine Essence. I have been practicing and remembering these truths and templates for the last 3 years and have found little honey pots of wisdom here and there. But none triggered or has activated more in me than Gillian’s work. And I’ve only received the free content. I can not imagine what a paid container would be like!

– A.

FEM is an All-Levels Membership Community for Women

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